What makes you happy?

Have you ever stopped your self and thought "what makes me happy?"  I know we think about things like that all the time, and the answers that everyone expects immediately rise to the surface.  But really..what makes you happy?  I have been doing a lot of thinking about this very thing this weekend and I've come to the conclusion that I really may not know the answer to that.  This response, coming from a generally "happy" person may surprise you.  My life is good. Not picture perfect (which of course we all KNOW is true :))..but really, minus a lot of drama and controversy.  Which for most people, they would be comfortable in that.  But I think I am very uncomfortable with that.  The funny thing is..my twisted sense of happy is chaotic.  I thrive in it.  When things are calm, I am apathetic and unmotivated.  I need that constant sense of drama to keep me going.  Totally ridiculous (and I know Christie you are smiling and cringing at the same time)..but I love craziness.  I need it.  I am a junkie for all things busy and hectic.  I realize I am only truly happy when I am stressed out and people are needing me to perform at optimal level.
Things are coming to a grinding halt right now..I mean there are things I need to work on, with deadlines.  But they are not overwhelming me to the point of getting totally motivated.  When I think about what really is making me happy right now, you might smile..
music.  I am really into music right now.  I am listening to songs..every word, thinking of how they might apply to my life.  I have been turned on to music in a whole new way lately..even (gulp) country music.  I would like to escape for a day and just listen..
a clean car..LOL..if you know anything about me..you know my reputation for a nasty, dirty car that generally looks like I live out of.  It is currently clean..cleaner than it has ever been.  That really makes me happy:)
school.  I am really excited about going back to school.  What that means for me, personally and professionally.  I love the environment..the thought of learning more so I can become a better person, more educated..total turn on for me.
I also have to think about what that will mean for my family.  The change of it all.  It will take me five full years.  Carly will be 15 and Abby will be 11 when I graduate.  Talk about a reality check.  I will be 43 years old.  LOL.  But I will have accomplished the highest goal professionally that I could ever set for myself.  But then I wonder..what then?  Will I be satisfied?  Probably not..knowing myself..never content..always searching. 
Christmas morning with my kids..yes.  The rest of it..the decorations, music..etc..I can definitely do without.  In fact, if you know me..you know this much..I hate it all.  But waking up and watching my kids open gifts..yeah.:)  That's a big one for me. 
entertaining- I am excited and happy about this one as well..we are having people over several times over the next few weeks.  I thrive off of this..love having parties at my house.
Really..those are the things right now that I am thinking of..
but happy is a hard one for me..just when you think you KNOW what makes you happy, the whole situation is flipped and you realize that maybe, just maybe you were never really happy after all.  The things that make you happy are fleeting, so you are constantly searching for new ways to get that same feeling.  The things mentioned above..making me happy right now..but how long will it last, will it last?  Such an arbitrary thing really..the whole word, the feeling. 
So what makes you happy today?  Really think about it..I bet you might be surprised if you look beyond the traditional, expected responses..
Cheers!